How to Build a Door
Thursday morning 4:00 AM: I kissed my wife and kids
goodbye as they lay asleep. My
night's rest was short but I knew that I must begin early to get the
days work done. Sleepily,
I crept out of the house trying not to make a sound so I wouldn't
awaken the dogs. The
night air was cool but invigorating and I paused for a moment to enjoy
it. I don't know what
triggered it but for a fleeting moment I thought to myself "I'm
alive!" Philosophically,
I pondered that briefly and felt thankful that I could, because the
alternative on such a beautiful spring morning didn't seem nearly as
appealing.
During the drive to my office I reminisced a little
about some of the patients that I have been fortunate to know.
As I was driving east on Jackson Boulevard I noticed that not
even the penumbra of the morning sun could yet be seen.
It made me think of a patient that I took care of and operated
on several years ago. He
had a pituitary brain tumor. The
tumor had caused his vision to be particularly poor.
So, on the first morning after his surgery I asked, "How's
your vision this morning?" He turned toward me and with confidence, he looked me right
in the eye and said, "Doc, every day above ground is a blessed
day. I woke up early this
morning and looked out the window and I saw the sun come up…and
that's 93 million miles away!"
Almost as powerfully as the morning that he said that to me, I
felt a wave of optimism pass through me and it made me smile.
Then I thought of several of my other patients who have shown a
similar attitude…a 39-year-old single mother who developed blood
clots that caused her to have a stroke, paralyzing her left side and
blocking blood flow to her right arm and hand.
She developed dry gangrene of her arm and hand and it had to be
amputated. To this day I
have never heard her complain…a 77-year-old man with ankylosing
spondylitis whose spine is fused from the base of his skull to the tip
of his tailbone. He has
broken his neck twice and his neck is fused with his chin on his
chest. He works 16-hour
days on his farm and he recently fell mowing his lawn.
He fractured his lower back and consequently he will have to
rest in bed for 12 weeks. I
have never heard him complain. In
fact, he is just the type of person who would not complain that roses
have thorns but he would rejoice that thorn bushes have roses.
I am a caregiver who ministers to the injured,
diseased and dying but I'm not yet one of them. In the continuum of time I know that my career and life will
be but a short breath among the stars of our galaxy and this often
causes me to think carefully about how I should use my time for what I
am to accomplish.
As a physician, I can tell you that people often
forget what you say but they never forget how you make them feel.
That is perhaps our greatest value.
For me, it is the patients to which I must give unending
thanks, for their courage, optimism and dignity is contagious… and
often it has emerged from
their pain and suffering.
A positive attitude is a form of kindness to oneself
and to those who witness it.
And, I believe that it is evolutionarily adaptive for the
survival of our species. Don't
wait for an opportunity to knock, build a door.
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